This song is about a dangerous addiction I've struggled with, how it cost me a job - and almost cost me my marriage.
Cards on the table: I’m fighting an addiction to pornography.
it got so bad it got me fired from a job, ‘cause see
I was exposed to looking at body parts from an early age,
with Jet’s beauty of the month. i turned the page
of mama’s fredericks of hollywood catalogs and dad’s video stash.
lessons from womanizing uncles made it really go bad,
but it got full blown up in college,
wasted hours surfing porn on the net. i couldn’t stop it.
it probably skewed my whole world view of women.
though I tried to show respect because they’re all God’s children,
it was usually after giving them the once over and rating them.
(I hope this confession don’t elicit too much hate from them).
anyway, i think i would have rather have died,
than lose my job messing with porn and have to tell my wife why.
Wondering what can i do, I'm in a church, praying,
when in the back of my mind, I hear a voice saying...
So you might ask, what does God have to do with this?
Well, I’m a follower of Christ, despite this foolishness.
Matter of fact, jehovah claimed he as his a long time ago.
but I strayed away from that when I took time to grow.
Trying to know my own identity,
that’s how i fell victim to all the sins that were tempting me.
It had me to the point where even when I tried to quit I always came back.
It was my control and my release when life treated me bad,
Just like a fiend with his crack. i thought marriage would solve it,
but when me and wife had problems, guess what would be calling?
and now it just cost me a job and wifey’s angered,
on the verge of demanding a divorce and I can’t blame her.
So now I’m at the altar wondering how I can fix this,
and I swear, as God as my witness, i heard him saying...
I’m feeling your pain. I knew a guy in a similar situation
Who was facing the same issue as you, cause he was wasting
his time and inheritance chasing the pleasures of the Flesh
but instead it left him empty like a president’s desk
after he’s voted out. The showing out had to come to an end,
but he knew even at rock bottom you can go home again
and trade those tattered rags in for a suit that’s clean.
don’t believe me? read luke 15, and let Jehovah tell you...
from The Third One
released August 29, 2014
written and recorded by Jugghead
produced by Maverick "Baby T' Turner
guest verse written and performed by Cairo